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Amethyst	The Chateau is as busy as ever, but Amethyst had messaged both Rishi and Pearly to talk about... something or the other. She didn't say exactly /what/ she wanted to talk about, but her message clearly indicated that the young dragon is full of thoughts. And so, Amethyst finds herself in the very Chateau where she and Pearly first met.
Black Pearl	Pearl's suite is beyond her office, and better for those she calls family, not just her employees or business partners, and so Amethyst is escorted back there, where Pearl is relaxing on a lounge with a large platter of fruit, and chilled carafes of juices available. "Hello! Come in and be well. You felt...troubled."
Rishi	Rishi is also lounging back there, a set of special cushions accomodating her wings, drinking juice. "Do not let her be doing the fooling of you Ammy. Pearly was being most hard at the work right before you did the arriving." she grins. "What are you doing the needing to be discussing?"
Amethyst	Amethyst grabs some fruit and juice, and nibbles on it a little as she considers. Her expression is like the mirror surface of a pool, calm and yet, not entirely at rest. And after she finishes her fruit, she finally speaks, ears down into her juice, not making eye contact. "I think I need help. Not... in some grand plans for conquering a nation or bold ventures into the wyld or anything like that. But, help dealing with myself." Amethyst says. "I'm practically brand new at being a Dragon-Blooded compared to the likes of Pearls here, and my recent spar with Ignis has shown me that I need help controlling the essence that burns in my blood. I want to do the impossible, to go further, to push further than any of my kind has before. And... that's just it. That mentality? That's gonna get me, and maybe those that love." And she looks between the two of them, "Hurt, or worse."
Black Pearl	"We...we strive. But we strive more when we work together," Salara says. "I don't want you to give up your dreams by avoiding risk. But you aren't sure what is a good dream, and what is foolhardiness, I think." She closes her eyes, "You know you are not alone, soul-sister. You have us both to help and support you. To swim every rapids, to crest every wave, to ride every storm." She smiles, "If our dreams synchronize, what cannot we reach for?"
Rishi	Rishi tilts her head to the side, looking over Ammy. "I am not seeing this desire to be doing the reaching to be such the bad thing. I am being most youthful of my kind, but I, too, have done much of the learning and the knowing. But..." she nods at Pearly, "yes, it is being best to be doing the knowing of the dangers. And you have had the ...problem there before" Rishi gives her a pointed look. "So...yes, do the coming together with us and the talking and the thinking. Do not simply be letting the fire in your blood do the carrying you away."
Amethyst	"Giving up my dreams isn't the question. Nor is entirely avoiding risk. I think I'd die if I tried to just play it safe all the time." Amethyst says. And then she nods at Rishi, "The fact that Pearls has some of my wyld essence in her a pretty good example of why I think I need to learn more of what is and isn't a risk worthwhile. It would've been much better to do a working to fix my essence than... whatever happened with me and you." She looks over towards Pearl as she says the last bit "And I know I'm not alone." Amethyst smiles, going and taking Pearl's hand, "What I want is someone who can teach me how to better master the storm that runs in my blood. And I figure out of everyone I know, you'd probably have those connections." And then Amethyst goes over to Rishi, and nuzzles against her, "And I would like to not worry you anymore about what we do. I'd love to go on big and crazy adventures, but only with a clear mind and soul. I lost, badly, thanks to my recklessness. I'm just lucky it was a spar and not the real deal. And between that and losing to Fudou almost as badly, I think I need a change of perspective."
Black Pearl	"We rushed ahead with that. If I hadn't offered the hearthstone amulet, well...we could have tried it later. But once it started...you were more important to me! I had to try to save you, so I tried to draw some of it to myself and keep you alive!" Pearl sighs and shakes her head, taking Amethyst's hand and squeezing gently. "This might seem strange, but...I wonder if we meld, you can experience me helping to calm you, not just as a hearthmate, but as something deeper? Beyond that..." She thinks, "If I pursue...family connections, they will want to bind you to the family first. Instead of to me. But I am sure I can find someone to help with things." She smiles to Rishi, and goes over to sit on the other side of Amethyst, pressing against her and reaching a hand over to Rishi's wing. "Perhaps I can find another rogue who will help. Of course, I will owe favors, but that will be worth it."
Rishi	Rishi pulls both Ammy and Pearly into a hug, one that feels warm and safe. Nothing can hurt you, nothing can harm you, you are free to relax, to be yourself, while in these warm, loving arms. She radiates comfort and healing. "Pearly is knowing the most about how to be dealing with the Dragon's Fervor, I am being sure. But, I am always being here to be healing and helping." Rishi headtilts again then asks Pearly. "Are there, perhaps, being books? Meditations? Exercises? Things that are being taught to all of your Realm Dragons that Ammy is perhaps not having the knowing of, that you could be doing the teaching of before you are needing to be doing the involving of your family?"
Amethyst	"I don't /want/ to meld with you Pearls. I'm... I'm me and you're you and you weren't /like this/ before some part of my essence ended up entangled with you." There's obvious distress in Amethyst's voice as she says this. "And giving /into/ that part of myself, the wyld within, it's only lead me to failure. I have to make that part of me work for me, not vice versa." "And as far as your family connections go, sometimes I wonder if it'd be safer to make me look normal and have me become part of Peleps. Either way poses a lot of risk tho." Amethyst says, "Another alternative is that I /could/ join with Lookshy, I'm sure they'll be able to help me. But that's its own sorta fire to be playing with, doubly so once they figure out that I'm wyld-tainted, and I'm sure they'd eventually figure it out."
Black Pearl	Salara ponders a moment, "Yes, but they are...not nice. Among my set, we were...encouraged to...sabotage others--first those who hadn't taken a Second Breath, and then those who had. The thing was...we had to be subtle and controlled. If we were caught, we would be punished twice--for the transgression, and for getting caught. I will try teaching just the part about not being caught. To still essence, or at least vent it in a....controlled fashion. For a moment there is a crack of surprise and hurt, but before anything else, it's snuffed out, with concern and warmth. "Do you want the Wyldness excised? /Can/ it be? Do you want me to look in to such a thing?"
Rishi	Upon the seemingly calm waters of Salara's soul, under the ever dark sky of lonliness, the light of the moon shines down, illuminating everything and casting it full of beauty. Rishi's wings fold around the two Dragons as she holds them close, her scent, her power ebbing away pain. In a strange and etherial voice, soothing but devoid of her usual accent, Rishi says "Once, those such as I, were Holy Beasts, saviours, protectors, enders of suffering. That is who I am, what I am becoming. My Mate, never hide your pain, your suffering from me. If you are hurt, we are hurt and only through hurting can we heal. I can feel the pain in your soul. Let us now talk about how to help you heal." Rishi's eyes are also glowing a faint silver.
Amethyst	Amethyst clings to both. "I don't need to be a spy or someone who can hide my intentions that well. Truly, it's wisdom and discipline that I need more than any one technique." "And my dear, understand that I'm not trying to tell you who or what to be, I need you to understand that the wyld is not a toy. It's not something for yout sait your curiousities in or play inside of. It can and will take you and hollow out who you are, leaving you but a husk if you are not careful. It will do its best to unmake the patterns of your essence until you come into alignment with it." "And after that, you are hardly a person anymore. The only way to deal with the wyld, is to either avoid it, ward yourself against it, or take control of it. If you really want to bear the marks of the wyld and risk your soul and essence, you need to be prepared for it. Otherwise, it may be wisest to try to pull that very essence out of you." "As for me? I was crafted from the essence of the wyld, made by solars and lunars of a long forgotten age from a fae who wanted so badly to understand Creation. I don't think you could truly take that essence out of me without utterly destroying me."
Black Pearl	"Then I should take control," Salara says firmly. "And I will." Se closes her eyes a moment, before looking back at the pair of them. "I am sorry my suggestions were not of use to you," she says with a regretful smile. "I wish I could help more, I just...this is what I remember. How I was forced to learn. I will, of course, be glad to help in any way that I can. I just wish I were wise enough to know how I could." Rishi's hand gets a squeeze. "Later will we talk. For now, we help our friend who stands in need of it."
Rishi	Rishi blinks and relaxes slightly. "I am being sorry, yes." Rishi frowns, and hugs Salara closer. "Are there no other teachers for the Dragon's essence that you can be thinking of Pearly?" Rishi looks ill at ease, but says "We did the taking of some of the texts from your northern Pure Way monks? Were any of those being helpful? Also...I did the healing of a Earth Dragon Monk in the Tournament. Perhaps, I could be doing the requesting of him to be helping to be giving you the training?"
Amethyst	"Taking control of the wyld is doable, but still risky. I can teach you what I know of it so that I can prepare you for what will ultimately be your own journey into making the wyld yours." Amethyst says with a smile. And she hugs, "And it's alright if you don't know anyone that might be able to help. I know my dad could do it, but he's been missing since before I even arrived at Great Forks /and/ he hates anathema with a burning passion." She rubs her head. "The text I stole was specifically about anathema, and my attempt at reconciling my own beliefs. Regrettably, I've just given up on the immaculate philosophy entirely. Too many holes, too many places that don't make sense anymore. I still remember it, but it's not grounding me anymore." "As for the earth dragon? Wasn't he an immaculate himself?" Amethyst asks.
Black Pearl	Black Pearl nods and frowns a moment. "No, wait. If you do not find peace and control in Water, then you do need Earth to help guide, just as Water helps to control fire! Because Water is not easily controlled. It flows, it goes everywhere--as does air--and either you match yourself to it, to flow with it until the flow is yours and not the essence's....or it needs to flow as a stream or river...in the banks of earth." She nods firmly, "If you want, I can try to help you as Water to Water, to first become the flow, and then to have the flow become you. But it could well be easier had we one of Pasiap's to assist. And once you get the hang of it, it is easier to do without it." She relaxes, no longer poised as she was before. "It is both philosophy and character of essence."
Rishi	Rishi holds Ammy's gaze "Yes, he is being the monk, but...even if we are not agreeing with their beliefs, do they not know how to be controlling the Dragon Essence? I am being told they are being most dangerous and knowing much of the control and you are saying you are needing the control and wishing to be more of the dangerous, so...?" Rishi nods, smiling at Pearly. "That is sounding most wise. Shall I be going to be looking for this monk or do you have the knowing of another Earth Dragon who can be doing the teaching?" Rishi pulls Pearly tighter. "I am having the protections against the Wyld and I can be doing the giving of them to the others. Just as we are doing the helping of Ammy to be controlling her essence, Ammy and I will be doing the helping of you to be controlling your essence."
Amethyst	"Well, I don't know any other earth aspects like that..." Amethyst muses, "And monks /are/ usually really good at the whole wisdom and discipline thing. I guess it's not the worst idea?" And she considers a bit more, "Do any of us know any other Dragons personally? I've met some in passing but I'm not really in contact with any aside from yourself, Pearls." And then she nods at Rishi, "And once you do conquer the wyld yourself, you can be marked like I am, so that the wyld may no longer pose a threat to you."
Black Pearl	"There are others in the city, and some nearby. Give me a couple of days and I am sure I can find someone. HOpefully someone suitable. As for the rest? I suppose this is the flow of life I am going with at the moment! Unless I seek to carve my own path through the landscape. Still, I do not want you to fear for me! So."